The Late Brother Brian Lee pass away 2 june 2015

When the day before he pass away, he came to my dream and telling me "Bye Brother Chaffruul, I'm going off and I will meet you one day in that happy land we can meet again... then I reply why so soon you have to leave? He reply me: It is Gods invitation for me to be with him again... then I reply to him ok... I will be missing you forever on earth. I will will meet you when my times end on earth... He reply thank you brother Chaffruul for everythings you have help me and celebrate my last birthday. That was the great reunion lunch with my family and I'm glad that day you came to my house visit me... thank you very much bro chaff. That day you make me laugh so hard with my elder brother Adrian about your name Hahaha!!! For the last time Bye Chaffruul... then I reply Bye Brother Brian for now but not forever... Safely go to Heaven and one day I will meet you there... I shake his hand and that was the last times in my dream seeing him and I woke up from the dream... I was feeling so scare  and sad... Then I question myself, is that real? Should I tell anyone about this dream what happen... If I told someone, will they believe me for sharing the dream? They will probably say you cursed him die so fast... or that could not be happen!!! That whole times, I kept wondering... and the next day around night I heard a very sad news about he pass away and he is now rest in peace in the hand of God... I cry on that night... and the following days I attend his funeral wake...and I told him, I'm glad you came to my dream and inform me... but I still can't stop crying that day on the funeral wake for the 1st day. I cry and wailing so sadly and painful... I'm glad to sent you off safely on your last funeral.

Goodbye, goodbye, I hate the word. Solitude has long since turned brown and withered, sitting bitter in my mouth and heavy in my veins. The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected... Then for so long I know goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I'll miss you until we meet again! We only part to meet again.

Glad you're my Brother Brian Lee, I just want you to know how happy I am to have you for a brother. The memories that we spent times together playing, sharing, talking, helping, taking me a tour around your house area and many more... there are times... like right now... when I want to let you know exactly how I feel. To put it simply, I don't just love you... I really like you!!! Even if you weren't my brother, I'd still enjoy being with you  and as my behalf brother... I know you since when I was a small boy. Can say like we grown up together. I appreciate the many ways you've help me. You have real talent for knowing just when I need you the most. I know I can count on you for support and encouragement, and you've always been able to make me feel good about myself... and life. It's true that we've had occasional disagreements over the years, but that's how we got to know each other better... to respect one another's self-worth and value each other's uniqueness...

You brought something special to our family, too. Life just wouldn't be the same without you... and all the wonderful memories you've given me. I hold onto our memories. The ones that are so dear to try to keep you always close. Now you are not here. You were called, it was your time. But it is so true, you have left a legacy there was no one like you. You were very special and I want to say I feel lost in many ways you are not here today. But I will never forget you and I know I have been blessed to have you for my brother, because you were the best ... I'm so happy to have you as my brother!!!

With Heartfelt Sympathy

Wishing You Peace and Comfort in the Midst of your Sorrow.

A prayer

May your spirit soar in freedom

From the fears that gripped so tight.

May you find the peace you searched for

As you wandered, lost, in the night.

May your tortured mind be clear and calm

And your tender heart be warm.

May you have no need for strength now.

May there ne'er be another storm.

May the music of the angels

Be the sweet sounds that you hear.

As you're rocked in Heaven's cradle

May you ne'er shed another tear. 

My only brother... my true friend.

May my love for you reach Heaven above

Until we meet again.

Hiking at Gunung Datuk, Rembau, Negeri Sembilan.

A Hiking Journey Picture at Gunung Datuk...

This is the starting point of Gunung Datuk... Before hiking up, need to pay RM10 for entrance fee.

The Map of Gunung Datuk.

Tree root coiling around the tree trunk.                  Tree bear yellow flower.

To reach up the highest point of Gunung Datuk peak, need to conquer three ladders obstacles. This adventure hiking is getting challenging!!! If not affraid of height this is the best hiking place for it!!!

Every steps and strenghts hiking up to the peak, it is worth. Every succesful and brave hiker will face some challenge obstacle to conquer. To watch the nice view of scenery, need to take every steps up to the peak.

TA...DA........ Finally conquer all the obstacles and here is the scenery of Gunung Datuk Peak. Total time is 2Hours spent along the hiking up journey. Spent 2Hours resting at the peak, taking photos, enjoying the scenery and feel the strong wind blowing like air conditioning so cold... This Hiking Trip totally worth it.

Spotted a scenery like a Small Blade Knife Shape Form.

Spotted another scenery like a Heart Shape Form. 

A Sign board of wishing Excellent and Wonderful... Yeepee!!! Gunung Datuk is 885meters height.

Acting Awsome!!! hehe!! Woohoo!!! Next jump of the cliff for sky diving... carry a bag parachute... LOL... I tired of hiking down... XD By the way I did not jump off the cliff because I still have strength to hike down... hehe!! LOL...  It took 1hours and 30minutes down from the peak to the starting point... The END... ^_^

Gear: Olympus Tough 6020 and Sony TX5

Diving Naturegrahy

During my diving just like to capture some photos... Enjoy the photos ^_^

Brown Mushroom

 Outer space drop in the ocean yellow golf ball coral

Brown and white spotted Starfish. Wish upon the ocean star and your wish shall be grant become mermaid... LOL...

Looks like something... can you imagine what's that? For my view and imagination it is a Gingerbread man... hehe!! LOL... 

White Soul Sea Slug

Can you spotted a Seahorse? Just few months old... 

 
Trigger Fish... are infamous for their nasty attitude and this behavior is especially evident around nests, where intruders, from other fish to human divers, are likely to be charged or bitten. So why it earns the name Triggerfish!!! 

 White Teeth Baby Shark

Dolphin capture at Layang-layang... 

Hiking at Broga Hill

Capture with Samsung S3

 Along the pathway hiking, I saw many of this wild grass growth brown Ornamental... Then something popped up in my mind brown Ornamental can be my main object capture with the sunset... rather then just focus on the sunset only!!! At the end of the journey, it just came up with this two big pictures with the sunset... Left picture show that no matter in the crowded place, you will always have the little light shine to guide you out...  Right picture show that a curve brown Ornamental surround the sunset...  Always seek the big picture among it rather then focus on a tiny small sunset in between the curve brown Ornamental!!! Photos without edit or photoshop... all are natural and pure lighting and original colour.

                                                  Wide angle scenery sunset...

                                               Life sometimes can be plain.....

Make a plain life transform to be beautiful by adding some positive in it... and it became so nice picture!!! Adam and Eve Garden... LOL... ^_^

No matter young or olds, healthy or sick,  we will always face death on earth and be ready for another place...

The Story Of My Life

A Story Picture Based On A Dream I Attend My Furneral.

A dream that I have recently... the dream was I attended my own funeral! Ever wonder experience dream like this before? I saw my body inside the coffin. During the dream I'm a Soulwalker!!! I saw my Dad, Mom, Elder Sister, Second Sister, Grandmother and friends...I can see the tears of sadness from each one...beside my coffin. That time I only can see them but they can't see me... I am now a spirit, I gently tap on my parents shoulder and whisper "Mom Dad I'm fine now. 

  

 In another world the spirit, I saw God, Grandfather, Grandpa, San Yee, and Kai Ma are happily welcoming me home of Heaven a light shine so bright... we finally meet again... It is been a long long time we haven't meet...We have reunite in heaven and I'm so glad... I was back and woke up from my bed... Breath in hardly and breath out sadly...  Then I realize that was a dream... Sometimes in our life, memories and love one will appear in our dream... When people in my life for so long or short time, they have gave me a lesson to learn from them and be like them too as kind and lovely way to love one another... I was too attach with the peoples I'm comfortable with... when they sudden disappear from earth, my whole life was a deep sinking hole... and I question God why? In a positive thinking is, it is a God invitation for them to be with God as their part in life given the people a good lesson.... and their job is finish... now in the safe hand with God... for my life I still haven't give people the lesson to be learn from me... so I will be still on earth living and finding way to show people a good lesson... 

I'm not so good in drawing at least I can show how was it along the dream and wrote out my death experience...


A song that mostly will remember me for this experience dream... Hym   Heaven Came Down ( And Glory Filled My Soul  )

Chaff Dream

Chaff Death Note...

"For many years, I have been moved by the blue at the far edge of what can be seen, that colour of horizons, of remote mountain ranges, of anything far away. The colour of that distance is the colour of an emotion, the colour of solitude and of desire, the colour of there seen from here, the colour of where you are not. And the colour of where you can never go." A Field Guide to Getting Lost. 

Gear: Sony TX5

Chaff

"All I wanted was to live a life where I could be me, and be okay with that. I had no need for material possessions, money or even close friends with me on my journey. I never understood people very well anyway, and they never seemed to understand me very well either. All I wanted was my art and the chance to be the creator of my own world, my own reality. I wanted the open road and new beginnings everyday." Empty Roads and Broken Bottles; in search for The Great.

Gear: Sony DSC TX5

Chaff

Everyone of us, busy on chasing wealth and ambition, forget the blessings we have around us. The blessings that people give to us, and the blessings that we give to others. In essence, the blessing that life in itself is.  If we focus on being a blessing, we are always blessed in abundance. Family, Friends and Folks, wishing a Happy Chinese New Year.

Gear: Sony DSC TX5

Chaff  ♥

Deep in my heart I know I am a loner. I have tried to blend in with the world and be sociable, but the more peoples I meet the more disappointed I am, so I've learned to enjoy myself, my family and a few good friends.

Gear: Sony DSC TX5

Chaff

I woke up today, wishing myself out of this place...  A prisoner within myself, weighed down by mistakes... It's a shame how time and pain can cause things to change... Turn it upside down, backwards, rearrange... and my whole world can shatter, and set fire to my dreams... And even thou its silent, my aching hearts screams... In a world so full of people, and yet I still feel alone... And myself wondering if anyone can see and anyone who truly knows... The pain behind the smile, the eyes that gaze for awhile... It's hard to accept things, when they blow up in my face... And it's hard to feel full, when it's only my tears that you taste... I have ever felt that could take no more? And that even thou I fighting, I still losing the war... 

Did I ever woke up and thought... How did I get to this place??? And that all those years add up to nothing but mistakes? Did I ever stopped and thought I could go no more? And hide my true self as if behind a closed door? I know I have, and sometimes I still do... But I know it's not hopeless, because I'm here to set a fire!!! And there will always be someone to help carry me thru... And I will always wake up and the day be brand new... And even thou I feel broken, and too weak to stand up... there is always things to support... 

Another day we'll have to somehow change the way things are... And know that my journey has brought me very far!!! Nothing will be to much for us to walk on thru, even when it's rough... And the winds of change come blowing to destroy us! And some people will continue to let me down... But have the strength to not keep them around... Keep believing in my dreams, never looking back.. as that's why our eyes place in front to look forward... let go of the pain and never look back!!! Find a way to get thru the days... And when it hurts the most is the best time to pray!!!

Chaffhope

Gear: Sony DSC TX5

Even after so many years, I still think soft toys are my best friends. I get disappointed all the times, not because people do it bad, but because I shoot my expectation high. I'm always needing somebody to give me that kind of comfort, to lend me ears when I'm about to tell something so hard it's choking inside. But when someone just is kind enough to make the step forward for me, I plan my usual paranoid part and set  up a barricade. That is why, at the end of the day... I still think I'm more suited to be alone, without friends. Most of the time, the journey has to be travelled alone in order to appreciate the strenghts that lie deep inside myself...

If you stop yourself from thinking, would it actually work? It will always come back and haunt you as a nightmare.

 

Gear: Samsung S3 

Chaff